What Does that tells You?

Well I said my prayers tonight, I dosed off for about an hour and I was wide awake again. Am watching American Pie: Band Camp in hopes of falling asleep, but in reality I am wide awake and worried. I am worried because at 11am Monday morning my mom called and told me she was in the ER. I was aware of the fact that she was going to the doctor Monday morning, but I wasn't expecting her to go to the hospital. My mom have had a chronic cough for years now and it's not getting any better most people will notice the severity of the cough and seek medical help, but no not my mom. She waits until the last minute when it comes to her health. Her excuse is "I don't like doctors". About 3 months ago she was admitted to the hospital and diagnosed with Triple Pneumonia. That type of pneumonia is so rear in the states that the doctor had to ask her if she left the state recently. Now again, this morning it seem that her cough was so sever that the doctor sent her to the hospital to get some test done. At 3pm she called and told me that there keeping her overnight. That's is not the type of news I wanted to here. As I lay here in bed right now I can't stop thinking about her. I wish she would take her health more serious at times. Me and my mother DO NOT have the best relationship but I do Love her. She is a grown women why should I her daughter have to scold her on something that is so important I just don't know sometimes. I said a prayer for her, I just hope she will be OK.

Nothin's ever promised tomorrow, today

Did it ever cross your mind that "they" put them lottery tickets here just to tease us!? My boyfriend spends money every single day playing lottery. Granted he has hit a few times in the past, the most 5G's. But I find it so weird how much money one person can spend on Lottery in a year. Lottery is like an addiction, I remember one time my man and I was taking a road trip to VA(Virgina) and he didn't get to play his numbers at the local store, so right before he got on the highway he starts panicking looking for a lottery store. It was so funny but in all actually it's not because he was coming off like a feen. I had to ask him; are you going to die if you don't get these mid-day numbers in.(lol) His lottery playing, is like clock work. In NY you have to get mid day numbers no later that1pm and the evening numbers by 7pm. So if we decide to sleep in late on Sunday he pops up by 11am and runs to the store to get his numbers in and same thing in the evening. Sometimes I just look at him and shake my head. He's addicted and he knows it! He went to Atlanta last week on vacation he called me this morning and he says,he hasn't been playing lotto, in the same breathe he turns and says he might go out and play a few numbers today SMDH...

The case of the 30 Year old Psycho

No the title is not referring to me :-) This is just a way for me to clear my mind. I was up last night messing around here on Blogger, I decided to sign off a little after 4am, I settled in my bed around 5am. My phone starts to ring the person hangs up. I have caller ID but at that time in the morning I wasn't calling anybody back, I figured it might be someone coming in from a party and might have called the wrong number. At 6am my phone rings again same number, same thing they hang up, at 7 am same thing at, 9 am same thing. So I came to the conclusion It was my sons father Ex-girlfriend. This girl/lady has be harassing me since late last year I'll tell you why. Early last year my son was spending the weekend by his fathers house. I called my son father cell phone to speak to my son. When I called a girl answered the phone at this time my sons father and this girl were supposedly separated. I found it strange that she was answering his phone. She starts asking me "why am I calling him", in total shock I actually answered her and told her I was calling to speak to my son. Well long story short she said he wasn't there, I said OK and hung up. From that day on this girl has been calling me seven times a day from morning to night *sick* The story behind this which I didn't find out until 4 months later is that, my Sons father was working at DHL and he had his uniform at her house he tried to retrieve it one night to go to work and she refused to give it to him. One weekend while my son was there she came over to his mother's house put the clothes in front of his mothers door steps and set the shit on fire.

~Blank Stare~

If that is not some sick shit I just don't know. From that day on it has been a disaster, she started stalking him, and just doing the most spiteful things you can think of. Remember I was telling you that she answered his phone , well it wasn't that he let her hold his phone, this Phsyco bitch forward all his calls to her phone,

~Blank Stare again~

Nobody on that side of the family told me this until 6 months after the fact. To top it all off I had to find out from his mother because anytime I asked him about it he would jump on the defense and get all upset. That make both of them sick. So now for 1 WHOLE YEAR this chick has been calling me almost everyday. 4 months ago she slowed down with the phone calls. The strange thing is that every time my son goes by his grandmother (the fathers mother) his ex-girlfriend calls. That tells me that he (my sons father) is still keeping in contact with this Physco. To wrap this all up am going to be the bigger women and keep ignoring her because people like that they feed off your anger and she is not worth my time. Love is Love Know that somebody Loves you ---{--@

Insomnia

I recently started suffering with Insomnia this year. It has been kicking my ass, most days I go to bed at 7am and wake up buy 12pm and stay up until 7am the next morning. I don't know what is happening. Maybe stress, the relationship, am just not feeling like myself. It's amazing how things can change when one is not happy with themselves. Know that somebody loves you ---{--@

"Judgmental Bloggers" Part II

I want to touch this topic again because I felt like I generalized the word "Judgmental". In this day and age people judge everything and everyone, I don't think it's necessary to judge. As Gods children we all were created different, no man or women thinks the same. My favorite saying in life is "Only God Can Judge me", and I think that's the realist shit I have ever heard. Judging whether someone is right or wrong, bad or good is the type of judging that is unnecessary by us. Judging should also not be confused with opinions. Opinions is something that everyone is entitled to have. Right or wrong? To clear the air according to Wikipedia Judgmental: Generally refers to the considered evaluation of evidence in the formation of making a decision. Opinion: Is a belief that may or may not be backed up with evidence, but which cannot be proved with that evidence. It is normally a subjective statement and may be the result of an emotion or an interpretation of facts; people may draw opposing opinions from the same facts. In my humble opinion I think we the people should keep it at opinions, and stop Judging each other.